the feeling of numbness

i juz realized my last post was about few months ago n yup..of course it's about him.. n today..again..it's about him.. him... i met him almost 3 years ago.. we haven't declare anything until 2day... but our relationship is mistaken with the people around us where they thought that we were cpl.. no we r not.. i did fall for him long time ago.. about 2 years ago.. but the feeling is faded away when i dun really felt appreciated.. he taught me a lot n i do owe him a lot.. but it doesnt mean tht i need to b there for him forever without bein appreciated.. he said he cant be my friend cuz he had feelings towards me.. but at the same time,he cant co mitt in any kind of relationship.. then wut would he wanted? enemy?? hurmmm.. n when i decide juz to be strngers.. he juz cant accept it n he keep on saying tht he misses me n so on.. wut for?? wut for u?? u cant be selfish n greedy.. i am not urs so u cant control my life all the time.. n u always run from ur problem.. until when?? u always said tht u r mature,but mature people dun run away from their prob n they will not b afraid to take any risk in their life.. ever..! so wut r u?? huh... i'll be very sad to lost a friend like u.. but there's nothing i can do though.. let's just say yes to my deal and we will lead our life like we always wanted to..k.